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And while he wishes he could escape this
But it all seems so contagious
Not to be yourself and faceless
And a song that has no soul

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And while she wishes she was a dancer
And that she'd never heard of cancer
She wishes God would give her some answers
And make her feel beautiful

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Remember feeling low
Remember losing hope
Remember all the feelings and the day they stopped

10:31 PM today has been quite a.. shitty day i guess. Started out with two "OFF SERVICE'' buses dancing past the little india bus stop when it was already 7.05am wth everyone was so sian la you off service then dont come and rub it in what cannot drive down another road is it D: Sorry its another one of those 'im pissed with the whole world and you cant do anything about it' days. So anyway then in school we kept discussing about the class tee, cos some people wanted a cotton class tee and others wanted dri-fit.. then Bala and I wanted dri-fit at first but there was some big hoo-ha about the cost and stuff so we decided to do our math worksheets instead and stay out of their um, heated discussion.

and if that wasnt bad enough i had piano after school.

oh im so happy i can just cry.

4:20 PM Chloe said that my hair looks like its highlighted.. haha I tell you everyone has a problem with my hair today during science we were doing something with the potassium permanganate then everyone started saying that I wanted purple hair -_- I was complaining to my sister after I went home la [she only has school like every wednesday and thursday zz] and she said when she was in nanyang her form teacher, vp and principal thought she dyed her hair and when my mum went to her school for parent-teacher meeting she told my sister's teachers that she also had brown hair. :D

Jovina said I'm more feminine now HA man she should go tell those christchurch guys at camp who asked if I was a guy or girl.

1:59 PM HAPPY BIRTHDAY GRACE! Y


10:20 PM WOOHOO I'VE FINALLY FINISHED MY BLOODY COMMONWEALTH ESSAAAAAAAAAAAY HAHA XINYUAN IS A HAPPY GIRLLLLLLLLLLLL1!!!1!!11!!1!11!!!

7:26 PM He's fought and he's fallen
He's on his knees before he's on his feet
A sinister romantic
Oh, he's about to be and she's about to see

Ha the day before our commonwealth essays are due yours truly here has decided to change to another question cos her previous essay was too rubbish.

TO HELL WITH COMMONWEALTH ESSAYS MAN!


8:11 PM camp FEAST. I actually miss it la haha although we were wishing we were anywhere on earth except at camp during camp itself but now all of us wish we were at camp and not anywhere else ESPECIALLY IN SCHOOL AND GETTING STUCK WITH STUPID MATH wth la we missed two math lessons when we were at camp then when Chloe Bala and I came back we couldn't understand a single thing so Mrs Lee had to give us remedial during RAP haha.

Hm there were only 10 girls in my platoon [including me qy and valerie] erp cedar girls in my platoon were friendly.. forgot to ask for their emails and stuff :/

I love rock-climbing! Just that the Sir who was my belayer kept saying "I don't know" and "No you cant" when I asked if I could trust him before falling. Wah lao then I was stuck at the top ringing the stupid bell cos he said he couldnt hear it. Rapelling was quite scary I was so proud of myself when I reached the ground and then I saw this Sir jumping down the rapelling wall twice and he was on the ground. So demoralizing ugh I was taking my time and tiptoeing down the 4 stories.

Paintball... um I got hit a few times and the only things I hit were probably leaves from the tree cos I couldnt see where my bullets went but everytime I fired leaves would start dropping from the tree so. Flying fox was cool :D I want to do it again haha but everytime the guys ran up the stairs when we were at the top the Sir would go, "Eh rgs and scgs! The tower is shaking! Shaaaaking!" zz

Archery HAHA man I'm lousy at that the Sir said I have strength but no aim. oh well I got bitten by lots of bugs at night ugh I'm lumpy all over. The rgs girls woke up at 4am to bathe/coat their boots or whatever they were doing la I thought it was already 5 plus so when they left the bunk I woke Qiying up and asked her what the time was. Haha then she gave me this look and told me it was 4.19am. I think we woke up at around 5am and chionged all our appraisals but in the end I didn't hand mine in cos our PC didn't collect from us -_-

Today was a rubbish day zomg double periods of english and chinese wth PLUS during chinese we had some chinese reading appreciation thing and the lady was standing in front of the class rattling on and on for two periods while Bala and I were playing hangman, [quote Bala] bullshitting and trying to finish our stack of worksheets from monday and tuesday. Aiyo I'm getting so sick of piano I don't want to take my exam this year! D: I shall check Chongying's blog and see if she made any complaints about piano..
okay I only found-> "piano teacher passed me my cert few days ago :] awww. so i passed grade 7 with a merit. but heck, my grade 8 is going to be a mission impossible. oh well, i'll worry about that when it comes (x" -_- oh btw her skirt's damn short haha cos now my lesson's right after hers so I see her every wednesday :) tsk.

Oh and 2sgs gave us sweets when we went back to school after camp :) Thanks haha!

okayz ii need tuu paint mii toenailszxszxs tata ferr now!

im kidding im kidding.

12:55 PM IRIS I know you've been going through a rough patch these few days and been feeling low, but HEY life sucks sometimes. You don't always have to put up a brave front; when you're feeling lousy you don't have to smile and act like everything's alright, everyone has ups and downs and people will understand when you're in a crappy mood. I'm sorry I can't comfort you or listen to your rants/complaints face to face like in primary school cos we're in different schools now and we don't see each other that much anymore, what with tests and homework and stuff. Like you said on msn the other day, sec 2 life's crappy now because it's stressful and all, and we all want to go back to sec one. But it's only the start of the year isn't it, and school's always hectic at this time of the year. Soon enough when we all settle down in school we'll have fun, and things will get better.

When we go back to pcps on chinese new year I hope you'll be feeling better and go back to your cheery self again. Sometimes when school gets crappy I really wished we were back in primary school, back in the times of all those stupid jokes and childish quarrels and real joy. Secondary school's so different and distant and we have to leave our 5, 6 years of friendship and make new friends. Everytime when we go back to pcps for some event or celebration I always miss you guys so much and I'd be so happy to see all of you. :( [I realise im sidetracking here...] BUT ANYWAY the point is when I hope you'll feel better soon and that I'll always be there for you ok? Just remember that you can always show how you really feel in front of us and not have to act because we can always see through you :) We love you for who you are and if you put on a happy and brave front just to show us you're feeling alright, we'd rather you be grumpy and pms all you want because we understand how you feel. I LOVE YOU LOADSY :)

3:31 PM Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme

Sorry OM people [namely sarah chloe bala and melissa] if i was pms-ing in the morning and afternoon and not going to Bala's house after we had lunch cos I was kinda in a shitty mood today.. sorry! But I love all of you :)

Sorry Grace for making you get pumped 10 times by the ncos yesterday.. I almost cried cos ncc always makes me emo sigh. Yesterday's parade was tiring I slept at 8 last night without doing any homework so im going to die doing all my homework today and tomorrow :/

I think I did something to my thigh muscles yesterday after repaying push-ups cos it hurts if I stretch it and its worse that muscle aches ugh bloody push-ups i prefer crunches la!

School is so tiring and stressful now, sometimes you just feel like sitting on the floor bawling your eyes out and refusing to get up and go to school.

7:26 PM Today during rap Jennifer asked me if I was from China. -_- then when I said no she asked if I was from Antarctica. wth do I look so... foreign? Ugh I think she was joking about the Antarctica part la but still! I remember when I was p6 and was on the bus on the way home and the bus driver [who was from china i think] asked me if I was from China. oh MAN THIS IS DEVASTATING!

ok ANYWAY. On a brighter note, I bought 3 muesli bars today from the fruit bar! Heehee I feel so healthy. Then today we were trying to decide the colour of our class tee [dark purple or white] and Esther poh suddenly decided to add "Taupe" on the board. Look at the definition of taupe:

taupe [tohp] Pronunciation Key, –noun a moderate to dark brownish gray, sometimes slightly tinged with purple, yellow, or green.

What kind of colour is that you tell me and all of us didnt know how to pronounce it so we pronounced it as "tau-pee". Anyway then Esther was still very enthu about her taupe la so she wanted to include it in the poll AND EUGENIA WENT TO ENCOURAGE HER and started asking everyone whether they wanted taupe D: But in the end even Esther voted for dark purple -_-

Oh the pe department seriously needs to change the basketball nets man today during pe we played basketball and then my ball:

so ridiculous la.

Oh hcl lessons are always soooo embarrassing I remember last year before hcl I was fiddling with Iris' present in class before lao shi came in and then I dont know what happened la then I dropped the damn glass bottle and the whole class was staring at me. Then yesterday I was drinking water in class before lao shi came in and Bala said something which made me choke and I FRIGGIN SPAT OUT WATER ALL OVER 4 TABLES. So embarrassing zomg.

Mrs Chia [the art teacher] is the most ridiculous teacher I've ever met haha yesterday during art we were supposed to discuss some poster thing in pairs then Bala turned to the back to discuss with Sarah Tan [Krit and I were sitting beside Sarah] and she started looking at Sarah's neoprints then Mrs Chia came and LOOKED AT THE NEOPRINTS and went, "Oh I see some girls looking at stamps to gain inspiration. This is very good! Well done girls! I'm very proud of you!" and patted Bala's back.

Then when we were in the library supposedly doing research on our art projects, Bala, Sarah, Krit and I were sitting in the same table la. Sarah was reading a storybook, Bala was busy drawing squiggles on Epoh's paper, Krit was staring blankly at some book about architecture which I found and I was doodling on Krit's sketchbook.. then suddenly Mrs Chia walked over and Krit quickly took a piece of paper and started acting like she was concentrating very hard on her artwork while referring to the book.. damn funny and Mrs Chia went, "I see a girl reading a storybook -points to Sarah- 2 girls not doing anything -points to me and Bala- and a very hardworking girl concentrating very hard on her artwork! -points to Krit- Well done girl! I'm very proud of you! Plough on!"

HA plough on Krit!

Yet another "I feel like whacking Estherpoh she's so annoying" story:


4:23 PM HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY QIQI AND AMELIA! <3


3:56 PM My stupid sister spilled a whole bottle of Twinkles in my backpack yesterday during her ODAC orientation ugh.

Okay um orientation parade on friday was good, we played games with the sec ones for the first half of parade, had farewell party for Ma'am, didnt have pt, repaid 100 [ok la we still have like 1300 and something to repay i think, but at least we've already repaid 100 haha], didnt get scolded, and I wasn't hungry after parade for the first time.

:)

Oh yeah and Esther [Lin?] is joining ncc i think.

Hm yesterday we all went to Melissa's very nice house for OM [Ranita and I got lost at the mrt station so Chloe and Sarah had to look for us haha.. we thought Stephanie was going to be late la cos she had dance in school but when we reached Melissa's house we saw her standing outside in her stockings and eating crackers -_-] and we digressed ALOT but anyway we still got work done. We saw Elle at United Square! Then after that Chloe and I were at Newton mrt station and Chloe realised she had left her wallet at Melissa's house. So then I checked my bag for my wallet and GUESS WHAT I found out that I left my wallet at Melissa's house too. So good job we called Melissa and she kept saying we were the lousiest losers in the world but in the end she still brought our wallets out for us heehee THANK YOU MELISSA :D

I have a funky OM group haha! Just that Bala wrote down a not very funky group name on the piece of paper and handed it up -_- The Skittles. wth?

Things are certainly looking up :)

10:47 PM After a very unsuccessful attempt at researching for my commonwealth essay, i'm back to blog again. :D

i officially declare mahjong papers should be hanged.

They made me so pissed just now argh they're so stupid and prone to creases. Wth lah ok i know im not making any sense complaining about damn mahjong papers but nat sj and joey will know what i mean.

So anyway. I'm in a pissy mood now cos I'm pissed about having so much friggin homework while other classes have so little homework i have like 12 items on my homework list!

man and i plan to finish half of that tonight cos i dont have to do everything by tomorrow so WELL DONE i dont have to sleep tonight already lor. but then again i was supposed to finish half of that before today so. HAIYA.


i love every single one of you [1]se-ians!<3





10:21 PM OH my god I can't believe I actually told nat I know how to get his number WHAT WAS I THINKING MAN its like im encouraging her to go after some random 17 year old guy she has never even spoken to YONGQUAN IM DEPENDING ON YOU NOW AH!

10:33 PM AAAARGHHHHHHHH WHO STARTED THE MISS VOCAB THING ITS DRIVING ME NUTS!

10:14 PM "Emagod I know this HOT swimmer...!" - Melissa

9:06 PM oooookay i'm really not supposed to use the com now cos i still have like a hundred and one things on my homework list and i have to check out words for the miss vocab thingum but what the hell i havent used the com for 5 days :O Yeah sorry i need to get a life ok um PIANO COMPETITION LAST SUNDAY it was quite ok just that after playing our first pieces everyone was hoping to not get into the second round cos we didnt want to [quote zheng ning] 'experience the trauma of being on the stage again' haha. Yu Jin and Yit Han both got into the second round and got second and third respectively WOOHOO CONGRATS :D My sister said Shukiat kept popping in and out of the curtains and making random comments hm -_-

Ok well anyway we're going to have a new pltnmate! Kimberly haha yay i think she's very nice. :)

I have overly-obsessive pltnmates who go crazy over sirs at HQ [COUGHnatbalasjhazelCOUGH] d000dzzzz.

OH NOOOO somehow i've landed myself as the most embarrassing role in our skit for OM [as usual.. DONT THINK I'VE FORGOTTEN HOW I HAD TO BE MIN FOR THE MIGHTY MANDARIN AND PRANCE AROUND WITH A FAN IN A CHEONGSAM BECAUSE YOU ALL CHOSE YOUR ROLES WITHOUT TELLING ME OK] AAAAAAAHHHH and then the others just sat there and laughed their heads off at me MAN i'm so not looking forward to performing in front of all the sec 2s.




"Be bold, be beautiful." ;)

10:27 PM Orientation today was quite fun haha Violet and I had to hide under the tables and tickle the sec ones' legs. quite -_- lah but it was very entertaining cos once when we tickled this girl's leg she turned to her friend and:

girl: hey why did you touch my leg!
her friend: why the hell would i touch your leg?
girl: eh dont scare me leh this is so creepy! are you sure you didnt touch my leg?

Then once Adelia joined us then suddenly this very loud voice went "OMG SOMETHING TOUCHED ME!" and Adelia said it was her sister haha. Oh and we had 65 sign-ups! :D Not all will join la but still it's such a big lovely number.

Today we had nothing to do in class again so Bala and I were desperately trying to read our Cheng Nan Jiu Shi books [ya la we didnt finish reading it during the hols but oh what the hey] and we realised that everyone else in class was reading their textbooks. omg but then we looked at Chloe and saw her cutting a picture of pooh bear to paste in her notebook, looked at Esther and saw her doing one of those weird things she always does, looked at Krit and saw her reading a magazine haha man I love 1se.

:)

9:55 PM Haha i'm a busy girl! Doing my no.4 tonight so i cant post much. I think sy's going to be ok :)

Hm generally today was a fun first day of school though lots of #@!%* things concerning __ happened and made us all really pissed but oh well we're kinda getting used to it already so it didnt really affect us much.

I'M TAKING OFF MY BRACES ON 5 FEB :D finally whooo but I only had it on for about one year plus aiya ok duty calls! and i have to go back to my stupid starch zz hope cca orientation tomorrow will go well :)