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And while he wishes he could escape this
But it all seems so contagious
Not to be yourself and faceless
And a song that has no soul

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And while she wishes she was a dancer
And that she'd never heard of cancer
She wishes God would give her some answers
And make her feel beautiful

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Remember feeling low
Remember losing hope
Remember all the feelings and the day they stopped

8:02 PM IM BACK FROM THE PLTN CHALET :D And I'm at home all comfy and happy while they're probably back at the chalet now scaring themselves silly with ghost stories. We took 3 hours to sleep last night la -_- We'd lie down and talk, then suddenly sit up, talk somemore, then lie down again, then hear some funny noises coming from outside, scream and squeeze together on the two beds. Haha then at 7 plus all our alrams rang cos we all set our alarms the night before so the people who were going for shooting practice wouldn't oversleep. AND SO we couldn't sleep anymore and started talking. Oh wait actually I was sleeping while they talked :D

Oh bbq was alright, just that Lauren started the 'black marshmallows trend' after her marshmallows caught fire and everyone [ok no only Hazel, Nat and Lauren] started to try and burn their marshmallows and make it black and bubbly :/ Then today I was supposed to go back to the chalet after piano but I felt quite homesick [I DONT KNOW WHY. this is the first time in my life i've ever felt homesick oh no actually its the second time the first time was when we went to australia and they only had beef beef and beef and flies trying to get into our ears so we were quite fed-up there. BUT the homesick problem has got nothing to do with my pltnmates cos they're nice funny people and its kinda hard to gt homesick when you're in singapore but whatever.] so I just went home after piano. Lauren left with me, cos my dad gave her a ride to Pasir Ris MRT. Blahblahblah for a more detailed post GO READ TAN SIEWJIA'S POST like I said after the sentosa outing, she'll include all the itty bitty details and say how she did all the bbqing and stuff - http://deathsj-.blogspot.com BUT SHE'S STILL AT THE CHALET NOW SO DON'T BOTHER CHECKING HER BLOG TODAY.



I'm sorry I said I don't miss 6a so much anymore; in fact I miss it so much I can just sit on the floor and be emo and think of all the good times last year and start bawling. I mean I feel so insecure without my pcps friends.. sometimes i just feel like transferring to Ny and be with all my friends again BUT its impossible BECAUSE:

1) I'm not smart enough.
2) Even if I'm smart enough I'll probably shrivel up and die under all the stress.
3) If I transfer all my cca points will be gone.
4) I don't want to quit scncc no matter how %^&$ it is sometimes.
5) I don't want to leave my pltnmates and the se-ians.
6) I JUST CAN'T LA.

And sometimes I wonder if I'm kidding to myself when I say I love scgs. But its actually like when I'm very happy in scgs and in se I will think I don't miss peichun and 6a anymore, and when something bad happens in scgs/se I'll miss 6a and pcps like anything. I know it's a bad habit. But my scgs friends are so different from my pcps friends! The only people in scgs I know who can survive in pcps are um. Esther[poh], Yanbing, Vanessa[seah and ng], Lingli, Chaisy, Qiying and Joanna I think. Like almost everyone else goes 'Eeee you're so cheena!' everytime something chinesey comes up in a conv. between people. And it's quite irritating the way they sometimes insult pcps and my primary sch friends although they don't know they are. Some just CANNOT survive in a mixed sch so yeah.

Man I can't wait for p5 camp.

2 more days!!

:D